i reported my car as stolen today.
too bad i didn't have full coverage on that bitch.
sucks. :(

i have a penchant for ending up in cemeteries. un-bidden, and unannounced.
cemeteries i've never been to or heard of before in my life.
simple, out of the way cemeteries in small texas towns...
with nobody around...
okay- it's only happened twice, but i guess the second time freaked me out the most...

i was living in lockhart, texas at the time. it's a small town about 20 miles or so east of Austin...
i came to san antonio to visit j one day. i was high as hell and still smoking when i hit the highway to go back home to lockhart (ahhh... there's nothing like driving while high!!! haha)! it was about one in the morning, early by my standards, but i was on 1-10 east and there was literally noone on the road except me...
now, there are two ways (that i know of) to get to lockhart from san antonio on i-10.
i missed the first exit. i don't know how- i was high, whatever... looked for the second exit; it never came... or maybe i had missed that one before i realized i missed the first one. who knows?
i figured, fuck it, i'll take the next exit and just turn around... the problem is, texas is a big state (understatement) and i-10 is a loooong highway. (takes you to houston if you stay on it long enough). it didn't really bother me too much at first because i was stoned and i love to drive and listen to music, but when i was 30, 45 minutes out of my way and i didn't come across one exit, i started to freak out a little bit- mostly because i was high and getting paranoid, but also because i was by myself.. i told myself that i would just take one of those emergency cross-throughs that the police use to get the opposite side of the highway, but it was so dark because there were no lights on this stretch of highway and every time i came across one it was too late because i was going too fast...
so i was pretty freaked out at that point, but i knew once i turned around i would be fine...
finally, i came to an exit.
i was so excited to be exiting this hellish highway! and i did; i exited it just as i planned.
but as i came to the stop sign (and noticed the only store around was an abandoned gas-station across from me), instead of turning left to make the cross over and head back on the highway the way i came, i turned right. this was without conscious thinking on my part, because remember i wanted nothing more than to get home at that point. but i took that right without knowing why, and then i took another right down a small, uneven, one-lane unpaved road surrounded by trees...
and i ended up in a fucking cemetery!!! A small, foggy (where the fuck did the fog come from??? maybe it was with me all along;) freaky fucking out-of-the-way cemetery that i had never been to before and have never been to again...
i literally freaked out at that point, because that's when i actually snapped that i drove myself unknowingly to this cemetery, hahaha! (and visions of jason from 'friday the 13th' danced in my head..) luckily i had a small car (i still miss my paseo, sometimes!) and i turned around and shot out of there so fast you would have thought something was after me...
perhaps there was.
i know it wasn't an accident that i ended up there. i actually want to go back, because i feel like it was 'calling' me somehow... but for some reason or another, noone wants to go with me and i know it will be a long, boring trip if i go alone (seeing how far from s.a. it is and i don't even know where the fuck it is in the first place). this was like... nine years ago, anyway... but still i think about that day and wonder why i ended up there...

this story is longer than i intended, but let me go on about the first time i ended up in a trippy cemetery...

this was when me and pat were living in my apartment (like ten fucking years ago!)... he had to go do some work (construction) somewhere on the way to austin. he asked me to drive him and his co-worker/friend and i had nothing better to do, so i did..
while they finished up the bathrooms of the apartments they were working in, i took a nap in one of the walk-in closets (it was the only room that was carpeted, haha!)
when i woke up, there were about eight or nine guys surrounding the closet door, literally watching me sleep hahaha!! which freaked me out, because i hate people watching me as it is, let alone while i'm sleeping!! pat finally came into the room while i was still waking up, and told the dudes 'What the fuck, man! That's my roommate!' and one of them told him 'lucky you!' hahaha! i guess i can laugh about it now, but there i go- off topic, again...
so anyway after we finished, pat, instead of us going 35 south which would have brought us right back to san antonio, got into his head that he would have me drive off into the west somewhere. to this day, again, i don't even know where the fuck we were, only that we were driving for hours.
his friend was telling him that he had to get home to feed the kid and blahblah, but i couldn't drive us home because i was hopelessly lost after all the back roads and different directions we had taken.
it had gotten dark, and we were driving down this long, windy country rode when something caught our eye... there was a small light to the left of us, glowing steadily. we found it odd because there were no power lines at all, so we didn't know how this thing was lit up and when we came closer we noticed it was a cemetery that this little light was coming from... pat got all excited and wanted to go investigate. the guy we were with all of a sudden forgot about the hungry people at home and wanted to go into the cemetery too, so in we drove... the little unpaved street went right through the middle of the dark cemetery so we quickly found ourselves in front of the grave with the light. it turned out that it was like one of those little tap-lights, or whatever, that didn't need any electricity to operate...
i parked my car (damn i miss that paseo!), and we all piled out.
there just so happened to be a bench there by the grave, so we sat down and popped open some beers (pat, on the road anyway, is like a walking bar haha).
the boy whose grave we were at was young when he died. i can't recall exactly, because it has been so long, but he was somewhere between 12-15 years old, or something like that. he had only recently died, and there were little things left for him by his head-stone... a toy car, still in the package... a letter, un-opened.
here's the freaky part... out of all the love that i felt there between the giver and receiver of gifts, there was something that did just not belong (to me, at least).
it was a burnt, black, shriveled up thing with a fucking noose around it's make-shift neck. i say make-shift, because this thing looked indistinctly human, yet we couldn't really tell due to the misshapen quality of it. and the fact that it had been burned to a crisp... pat had his hand halfway to the 'thing' when i screamed at him 'no! don't touch that shit!'- so he didn't...
i found it strangely sad that someone would leave this frightening gift at a small, deceased boy's grave. :/

i don't know- i guess things like this never really leave my mind...

I just went to the store to buy a six-pack (bud-light, my fave!!).

Convo with the clerk, after taking my beer up to the counter:

Me: 'Your beer is expensive!'
Clerk (an older man with long, grey hair pulled back in a pony-tail): 'Well- it's a convenience store.'
Me: 'My other convenience store isn't this expensive...'
Clerk: checks my valid id and rings up the beer.
Me: after seeing the price and handing over J's hard-earned money: 'Oh, it's not that expensive. How-come the door said a different price??' in a confused tone.
Other clerk (a girl squatting besides the next register, who I'm sure I've dealt with before): 'Oh, yeah, the price on the door is wrong.'
Me: 'Oh, well then that's not that bad.' smiling at the lower cost. :)
Clerk: 'If you would've looked at the price, it was probably for something else- things get mixed up here alot. It happens alot.'
Me: 'Yeah, the last time I was here, the door was locked; I think it was on the weekend, though...' Remembering the last time I was there- it was like ten til 12 and I tried to open the door for the beer but it wouldn't open. I asked a guy in the back if they had stopped selling beer already, and he said no but that he would have to get it for me because they keep the doors locked...
Clerk: : 'We get alot of beer runs here. We would lose about 100- 200 18-packs a month.'
Me, after taking my change and grabbing my beer: 'Wow- well good luck with that!!'
Clerk, smiling genuinely at me: 'Thank you! You have a fantastic night!!'
Me, walking out the door with my best friends, the beer: 'Thank you! You too!!'

haha! That's how you know you live in the ghetto!!! :D

I wouldn't change my present location for anything, though.
I love driving through this side of town. I love the activity in the streets- the guys in their uniforms just getting off from work, walking with their lunch bags on their way home, the cute girls with strollers, or without, walking to the grocery store (or who knows where), the fine gangsters with tattoos and shaved heads trying to look angry so nobody jumps them... Or just walking along ignoring the world while listening to their headphones while I want to scream at them 'Look at ME!!! Pay attention to ME!!! I'm alive, damnit, I'm ALIVE!!!' hahaha!!
The other day me and Angel were in the truck driving by H.E.B. and we got stuck at the red light. (One bad thing about my street is how fucking busy it is!!!) I was checking out my surroundings (you're dead if you don't! haha j/k!!) and I saw this guy in the H.E.B. parking lot, dancing around. Not only was he dancing, but he was rapping into an imaginary microphone! It was so awesome, there wasn't even anybody around him- he was just enjoying himself on that beautiful day. Me and Angel were watching him and laughing until I realized that the light had been green and there were no cars left in front of me. (Luckily none in back of me, either!) :) haha
I love people like that- they always make me smile. And what is a world without laughter, anyway??? :D

This happened in late August. It made me laugh when I saw it on the news at the time, but I know it's not funny- just fucked up.

This man beat up his 'friend' with a metal baseball bat because his friend bought him a McDonald's burger instead of Burger King! (I would have been pissed, too! But, ummm... I wouldn't have gone all postal about it, haha!)
Apparently, this asshole beat another man to death with a baseball bat back in 1998... He was sentenced to eight years for that crime.
Here's a couple of news links... The comments posted to them made me laugh, too... At least he didn't kill this guy like he did the last one!

KENS5

MYSA

KSAT12

Okay- for those of you who tweet (that's such a fucking ridiculous word, haha!), how the fuck do I get my tweets to show up here via loudtwitter (or whatever it's called)?? 'Cause I signed up for it today, but not one of my tweets have showed up, and I don't know if it's because the time-zone thing was all crazy when I had to choose one and maybe I did it incorrectly?? I don't know... Please help!!!!

My fishie died two days ago. He hadn't been himself, lately. :(
J's friend died in a motorcycle accident about three days ago... I didn't know him, but it still makes me sad. They showed the van that he hit on the news... When I saw it, I knew there was no way the driver of the bike would have survived that...  (video link) Apparently, the van just pulled out in front of him; they arrested the driver because he didn't have a license or registration... Fucking sucks. I get nervous for the people that I know that drive motorcycles... Deathtraps. :/
I had to take Angel to the doctor today (or, technically, yesterday); he's sick- but he'll be going back to school today. The medicine helps him feel better. ..
It was 103 degrees outside today.
Our a.c. is still fucked.
I have court this morning.
I haven't slept worth a fuck.

Good news???
It finally rained...

A cop got fired from the San Antonio Police Dept. (last) Tuesday because he fucked/raped a hooker!!
What's so horrible about screwing a prostitute, you wonder?? Oh- just the fact that he was on duty while it happened!!!
Haha!
This is why sometimes cops are scary...
Always travel with a witness!!!
Because, you know, for every hard-working cop out in the streets- there's another one with a hard-ON !!! :D
I mean- I don't know how many times I've been handcuffed and searched by the police! It can get pretty freaky, sometimes!! ;)

Oh- here's the story! (It also talks about another S.A.P.D. "officer" who exposed himself to a couple of college students. But that kinda comes with the territory, doesn't it?!?!)


...story...


I think this just serves as a reminder:
Don't get caught with your pants down!!!
:)


EDIT: Here's yet another case (from just this past weekend) where an S.A.P.D. officer is accused of choking his wife!!!

...another story...

And p.s.- his bond for Assault w/bodily injury is ridiculously low! And I know personally!!

[ x-posted ]

This is a link to a story about a "drug" raid the S.A.P.D. conducted while acting inappropriately. Who would've thunk it?? Not in San Antonio!!!
Whatever; These are not the same cops that raided my apartment (for nothing but personal reasons), but it doesn't even matter. There are so many corrupt police officers out there, we'll never be 'lucky' enough to meet them all! ha!
Motherfuckers are going to go down... sooner or later, bitches!!!!

http://www.mysanantonio.com/news/local_news/SAPD_investigating_officers_handling_of_drug_raid.html

and another...
http://www.qsanantonio.com/lesbian-home-raided.html

This is only one bad raid that has gone public, only because there were no drugs found in the place. If they did find drugs (even a joint, like with me)- nobody would give two shits about the person on the other end of the law. Because the cops always have the upper hand. Especially in this shitty city where these pigs stand by each other even when everybody else knows they're wrong.


Open letter to the dirty police: The clock is ticking!!!!!!!!!!!!


Justice, bitches!!!!!!!